Who am I? Ah, that’s the great puzzle
I’m a twenty-something full-time graduate student and full-time professional trying to create and maintain a life despite my illness.
Diagnosis Is there no way out of the mind?
Around 8 years old, I fell into a deep depression and silently suffered for years. When puberty hit I began showing typical childhood signs of bipolar. At around 14, a doctor finally diagnosed me with Bipolar Type II. From 14-18, I was noncompliant with treatment, and in and out of the hospital. My mother deserves a big-ass award for everything she had to fight me on just to keep me alive and kinda-sorta well. At 18, I left for college and the responsibility was handed over to me. It took until about age 20 before I finally started to take control over my illness. Today, I fight. Some days harder than others, but I do it.
Recently, I was additionally diagnosed with premenstrual dysphoric disorder (PMDD). If you put my hospitalizations on a timeline, they all fall into a perfect pattern with my menstrual cycle. Cute, right? All it really means is that we’ve put a label on the fact that there’s certain weeks, which align with my menstrual cycle, where I have to fight extra hard. And I do.
I have zero professional qualifications in this field. Everything comes from personal experience and research. As much as I LOVE to answer any and all questions, my bottom line is always consult your doctor. Stay safe, pretties ❤